Wish it would..

I want that feeling. When you take a deep deep breath tapos pakiramdam mo everything feels like it's going to be okay. Lalo na pag you feel discouraged or frustrated, there's those moments we have every now and then where we just need to pause and we get this feeling. If you know what I mean. Hirap explain e. Yun bang you just...you just feel like everything really is going to be okay. Like the world stopped spinning for a second, and everything was clear. I need more of those moments. Yeah! Kinda need 'em.

feels strange.

All this time, I've always been afraid of losing people I love so much. But sometimes I wonder is there anyone out there who's afraid of losing me? Well, I must be grateful for I know God's saving grace is with me. But why I feel like this? Uh hate this feeling.. Perhaps it is just my longing for that person. I just don't know. ah yeah I think that's it.

Teenager. (:

“Being a teenager is hard, harder than some can imagine, harder than some can remember. It’s those years you’ll never forget though you sometimes wish you could wipe them away. They seem to last forever, but when you look back, they went by so fast. Being a teenager is falling in love too fast, and too hard, talking for hours on the phone to your best friends, being talked about and talking about others. It’s being guilty when you’re innocent, it’s standing out and fitting in. It’s when you have a million questions that will never be answered. Being a teenager isn’t something you can really describe, unless you’re living it at the time. It’s dealing with life when it crashes on you, and trying your hardest to live through it. Everyone has their tough times. Everyone goes through something, but being a teenager, that’s when you feel everything at once. When you’re in love, you’re really in love, when you hate someone, you despise them, when you’re lonely, you’re miserable. Being a teenager is something you always have to go through, and it’s the best and worst years of your life. Being a teenager isn’t anything-it’s everything. It isn’t a big deal-it’s a HUGE deal. And while you’re being a teenager, you ought to live it up, because this is the one chance. The one time, you’ll be young, and free, and careless, as teenagers usually are.”

aaaaaa-aahm,.

Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you??? hmm.... ;)

Horrible and uneasy..

Alam mo you can't help who you fall for, and no matter how hard you try and how much it hurts you, bsta araw2 you just want to be with them or just talk to them and you can never stop trying to make them happy because that's what keeps you going..hehe buti nlng may blog. waaa. may napagsasabihan. cgi. til nxt tym ah. Bye..

i did everything right for someone that does everything wrong to me.

Well, hanggang ngayon di ko pa din alam kung anu ba tlga nkpag trigger sken kung bkit ako natutong pumalag. Siguru dahil na din sa mga ginagawa niya sa akin noon pa. Sadya lang napuno kanina.. Pero siguru mas ok na din to. Naawa na ako sa sarili ko sa totoo lang e.. loss of self-worth ika-nga.. Alam ko, simula na naman to ng sleepless nights. Ito na naman aku. iyakin tlga! UH! pero sna Lord sa huli,kundi man ngayun sa mga susunud na araw o buwan o taon. Marealize nya na para naman sa kanya lahat ng ginagawa ko. Para sa ikabubuti nya. pero Lord bkt hinde nyia makita un? tskk. Di bale na, basta naipakita ko kung ganu ko siya kamahal. na kaya kong magpakatanga para lng sakanya. haay. So, I therfore conclude na sa pagmamahal,.. dalawa lng yan kung either ikaw ang magpapaiyak or ikaw ang paiiyakin. Unfortunately for me, I chose the 2nd one. I think its time for me to wake up because life goes on. Simula na ito cguru yung tinatawag nilang "Moving on". Lord, help me nlng. Cheer me up everyday. Bye for now. . .

Friday the 13th.

This day was cursed. it is like UH!!!!! burden. burden. burden. X(

hopefully.

i'm feeling uninspired.
I hope my mood brightens tomorrow…

like right now..

I often talk to myself. I also play out situations that I would like to happen. =))